Messenger to Hangouts It's All Online

I have always been fearful of the online relationship.  Mainly because when I first started, this search, I didn't find the right kind of people.  People looking for nothing more then sex.  Another who wanted nothing more then to Dom me from a far.  For someone who is not into masturbation, trying to do that was just absolutely ridiculous.  My favorite was the guy who wanted me to watch porn with him and critique it!  hahaha...that actually was fun.

Now, don't get me wrong, there are a couple online relationships that I am glad to have.  I just wish that they were closer to me in distance.  I have two men that I have met and I am very grateful for them.  One is a friend that I have know for over a year.  Working on almost two years.  He is a caring, fun loving, and someone I can turn to at anytime for anything.  He lives in Indiana and lack of money, on both sides, is really the only reason that we have not met.  I hope that soon things get better. I do intend to visit him and his girl.  He is a good person that I really would like to meet and show my gratitude to.

The second one is a much newer relationship.  Yet, I feel so greatly connected with him.  He is currently deployed but when he comes home it will be to Ohio.  Roughly three and a half hours away but that drive will seem like nothing when I can go see him.  He is kind, caring, funny, interested in my life, cute, and amazing.  He came into my life at a time that was right before very stressful events happened in my life.  He was there and supportive when my mother passed away.  For that alone, I can not thank him enough.

He has touched my heart in a way no one else has.  A simple hello can make me smile all day long.  I have promised him that when he gets home and settled I will come visit.  I am excited to meet him and I will not be the one who stands him up a second time.  I care about him.  A simple flight between places for him had me worried to no ends.  I mean I stay up to talk to him before he goes to work and we are on a seven hour difference.

We have talked about things that I haven't discussed with other people in a long time.  Told him about the simplest things in my life to my darkest secrets.  I trust him. He doesn't want me to limit myself.  He has told me to keep dating and meeting people.  When it is over he just wants to hear the details.  On the other hand, if he gets to go on a date I want to know about it as well...hahaha.  He told me that he is just someone behind a computer screen.  I understand why he doesn't want me to get to connected and why he wouldn't want himself to become connected to me.


~Violet

Was the Rabbit Wearing a Sports Coat?

I have once again become like the White Rabbit and dashed down the hole to Wonderland.    I don't usually mind taking the journey.  I meet interesting people along the way.  Some who caused me to dig my claws in and slow the journey.  Slow it so that at the end I can gently put my feet on the ground.  Others who have promised to catch me at the end but ultimately watched me face plant and then laughed.  Those are the ones, I call "off with their head" on very quickly.  I don't need walruses in my life.

The most recent dash, I fell just a little and then dug my claws into the wall.  I will keep digging them in and hanging to the wall until one of two things happens.  I will get tired of hanging there and climb back to the top to start again.  Or my recent chase will either come around and climb out of his hole ready to start again. Currently, either way, I am not hurt. I stepped up and dug in long before I could see the face plant. If I do have to climb back to the top I will be stronger when I reach it.

Honestly, I would really like the chance to finish my current chase.  I really like what I know of this chase.  Potential for so much.  While at the Hatter's Tea Party his caring and fun side toward the Door Mice came out.  It made me smile and inside you could have knocked me over like a card solider.  It was amazing to see a man glow.  I just wish him the best.  I don't know much about his situation but I feel he was wrongfully given a hard face plant.  One so hard that it effected his heart as well.  I hope the caterpillar comes along and helps him to see the beautiful colors that his life really has and that he is strong enough to change the patterns of those colors.

In the meantime, I stick to my wall and hope for my chase to continue.  Or to become friends and find a new chase to start.  For I have smoked the hookah with the caterpillar many times.  I see my the amazing colors in my life and know that I am strong enough to change their pattern.  I am also strong enough to help others change the pattern of their colors.

~Violet

It All Adds Up

 1  The car needs a transmission...solution buy another cheap car until there is time to fix the trans.

+1 The bike needs work....shelve the project until next year and cancel the insurance.

+1 Things need to be done around the house...run away from the house and find other things to do.

+1 The bills need to be paid....write a check to the wife and hope that I leave myself enough for gas in the car.

+1 We didn't like these test results...go in for this procedure, wait 3 worry filled weeks, it's not cancer but you need to have this procedure done.

+1 I don't know what we are....tell me what you want to be and I can work with that....still waiting on that answer.

+1 Parent needs you....to her this means drop everything and come now.

+1 Short handed at work....boss gets in an accident, someone complains about who is acting about manager, corporate lessens acting managers time at office, only other co-worker breaks a bone, leaves me to be the only one to run the office.

+1 Talk with guys via text and online...weed out the crazies, losers and just looking to get laid guys, find 1 out of 100 that is actually worth following through with, talk 2 weeks and find out is was really just all about sex....start the process all over again.

+1 Get sexually teased by people who I have been talking with for a while...get a little more frustrated everyday because it is always good to be teased when you haven't had sex weeks and an orgasm in months!

Total this all up and what do you get?

One sexually frustrated woman who carries the weight of her world on her shoulders!

I just want that release that comes when you can just let go.  The rush of hormones that your body thrives for .  Those total body twitches that leave you feeling like you are jello and that you will never walk straight again.  Some arms that wrap around when it is all over and for a few moments push those stressful things aside and shield you from them.  

I would also be willing to accept a neck and shoulder massage....haha

I know that those stressful things will be there when I can walk again.  I deal with them daily, as they are this thing we call....what was that word....LIFE.  It comes at us so fast sometimes it really does knock us off our feet.  All I am saying is that if I got used and fuck well, every now and again, that world wouldn't feel so heavy.  Or I wouldn't need that neck and shoulder massage!  haha

Take care my friends.  Never let life get you down and when it does, go get fucked!

Violet

PenguiCon Weekend

Well, I know that I don't write here as often as I should.  I just get going and forget to write my adventures down.  There have been many lately but, this weekend is PenguiCon.  I hope that once I leave work that my mind can get into the spirit of the weekend fun.  I am confident that my girls will help me with that.  That is why I keep them around.  They are my family and I honestly couldn't ask for better.

There is some after dark programming going on.  I really hope that it is not run by the people that did it last year.  I want knowledge in my programming.  Not boasting about your conquests.  So I will be checking the programming book for the one.

I am also excited for the new ship this year.  I wish them the best of luck and I will be right there helping you celebrate in a grand fashion.  I also intend on paying my dues for the year.  If for no other reason then to support some more the peeps that I love and their ventures.

So here is to wishing for the best weekend I have had in a while.  Here is to living it up large for the weekend!

Punishment for Daddy

I was talking with a friend who has been Daddy to me.  He identifies as a switch and he was being very sassy with me.  That led me to multiple threats of punishment.  Pushing my buttons, he continued to tell me that I would never be able to punish him.  Finally he said tell me how I would punish him and it lead to the following:

First we would start out by making you a rope cock ring. Then slowly warm your ass up. Make it nice and pink and oh so ticklish. Then I would play with your dick a bit. Rub it up and down. Make it nice and wet with my mouth. All the while I will have a finger in your asshole. Slowly moving in and out.

Then just as you are about to cum, I stop. Leaving you begging for more. While you are begging I will slip on my strap on. Just when you give up on begging, I will come up behind you and thrust my strap on deep inside you. Pull out and go in for more over and over and over again. You, all the time I pound your ass, will be rubbing your cock. Then just as you are about to cum I go as deep as I can, reach forward grabbing your nipples. Making you scream out in ecstasy.

This ended up being so short because it was just a message on Fetlife.  In the future I may take the time to expand upon it.  Cause really this man could use a really good punishment!!

Bucket List for 2013

So, yes, even I fall victim every now and again the the New Years Resolution thing.  This time instead of making a resolution list, I am making it a bucket list.  Things I would like to do in 2013.  Not things I resolve to do.  So if they happen that is great.  If not I carry them over to the next year.  So here is what I came up with.

Places to visit:
Toledo Zoo
Detroit Zoo
Belle Isle
Kalahari Water Park
Wild Safari Park
Cedar Point
Traverse City
Henry Ford Museum
DIA
Michigan Science Center
Red Oak Water Park at least 2x

Things I would like to do to better myself:
Motorcycle at least a 1000 miles
Bicycle at least 200 miles
Pay off my medical bills
Loose about 50 pounds
Be more social with friends old and new
Walk with Max 3 times a  week
Alignment on my car
New tires for the new rims for my car
Urban Explore more
Roller skate more
Buy a pedometer
Read 3 new books
Save at least $1000
Get my kite out more (and not loose it)

Fun things that would be nice to do:
Camping at least 2 weekends
Tube at least twice
Throw at least 3 parties/dinners
Go fishing
Take a ride on a boat
Take a photography class
Fly somewhere
Attend at least 2 concerts

One thing that must absolutely happen:
Monthly dinners with my P.I.C.

Not a very big list and certainly a very workable list.  So here goes nothing!  Best wishes to you all in 2013 and may you make your bucket list happen as well!

This is My Mind's Scene

I was asked to write up a scene for a curious person who did not understand some things that I was talking about at all.  He also was not into pain.  If he had been the spanking would have been much more intense.

What could happen if I was in charge...

First, you would greet me at the door in nothing but boxer briefs.  You would take my coat from me and undress me of my vanilla clothing. You are to touch only my clothing. Every time you slip and touch my skin that earns you a hit with the paddle. Underneath my Clothing I will have on a corset bra and panties.  Do not touch me without my direct permission.  

You would then remove your boxers and kneel next to me on the floor.  I would then start warming you up with simple touches, kisses and bites.  You are to remain perfectly still while I do this.  The only thing that may move is your cock.  The first time you move you will get a hard bite.  Second time 2 hits with the paddle.  Third you get cuffed.  Also no touching yourself.  If you make it through with no moving you will get some time to touch with your hands my tits as a reward.

Now you lay on the bed face down so that your ass is exposed.  I then proceed to tie down your hands and feet.  After you are tied down I distribute any punishment that you earned up to this point.   Then I would give you a few minutes to calm back down.  The next thing would be to start touching you.  At first with just my finger tips.  All over your naked body.  Down your arms, up your legs, across your neck, down around your ass and maybe over your balls.  Sending sensations through the skin.  Drawing blood to the surface so that every nerve is standing at attention.  Leave you craving for me to touch you and wondering where I will touch next.

The next step would be gentle slaps with the lightweight flogger.  Yet another layer of sensation.  Nothing hard just gentle hits, In between I would use the flogger like a like a feather and swirl the ends around on your warmed skin.  Make you shiver from head to toe.

Since you are a wuss and not into the pain that brings pleasure, I would bring the spanking to an end.  While you are still face down and tied I would start by teasing you balls.  Light little touches. May even pull out the feather whip that I have. Make you want to squirm so bad.  Drive you to the point of wanting to cum.  Getting you to the edge and stopping forcing you to pull back.  For you can not cum before me.

Now I place my pussy in front of your face.  Your hands are still tied.  So I spread my pussy open for you.  With only your tongue you are to make me cum.  Not some soft little orgasm, I want you to make me scream when I cum.  All you have to this with is your face and tongue.  Make it happen or play will stop there and you will be dismissed.

If you make me cum, like I told you to do it, you will be rewarded. We will start by turning you over but you will remain tied.  I will run my tongue all around your nipples.  Then small nibbles on your neck. I will run my hands all over your body.  Ending at your cock.  I slowly wrap my fingers around it and move them up and down.  Run them down to the base and tighten my grip.  then my tongue will come out to soak your cock.  Starting at the tip and going down to the base, all the way around.  Making you wetter and wetter as I work it with my tongue.  I would even lick your balls.  Suck them in to my mouth.  Then I would come back up to the head of your cock and take you into my mouth.  Then all the way down.  letting you feel your cock touch the back of my throat. I would fuck you with my mouth.  Up and down, deep making you harder and wetter with each suck.  With my hands I will play with your balls and your nipples.  Massage your taint and make you want to cum.

Then just as you are on the edge and about to cum, I will stop and take all hands off.  leaving you lying there wanting, begging, pleading for me to finish and allow you to release.  I will stand over you watching this all happen.  See you quiver with excitement and disappointment.  Just as you come to terms with the fact that you are not going to get to cum, I will once again take you in my mouth.  Fuck you as hard and as fast as I can.  Giving you that release and allowing you to cum in my mouth.  Then as you are laying there tired and weak.  I will release you from your ties and take you in my arms.  Holding you while you rest.