I have always been fearful of the online relationship. Mainly because when I first started, this search, I didn't find the right kind of people. People looking for nothing more then sex. Another who wanted nothing more then to Dom me from a far. For someone who is not into masturbation, trying to do that was just absolutely ridiculous. My favorite was the guy who wanted me to watch porn with him and critique it! hahaha...that actually was fun.
Now, don't get me wrong, there are a couple online relationships that I am glad to have. I just wish that they were closer to me in distance. I have two men that I have met and I am very grateful for them. One is a friend that I have know for over a year. Working on almost two years. He is a caring, fun loving, and someone I can turn to at anytime for anything. He lives in Indiana and lack of money, on both sides, is really the only reason that we have not met. I hope that soon things get better. I do intend to visit him and his girl. He is a good person that I really would like to meet and show my gratitude to.
The second one is a much newer relationship. Yet, I feel so greatly connected with him. He is currently deployed but when he comes home it will be to Ohio. Roughly three and a half hours away but that drive will seem like nothing when I can go see him. He is kind, caring, funny, interested in my life, cute, and amazing. He came into my life at a time that was right before very stressful events happened in my life. He was there and supportive when my mother passed away. For that alone, I can not thank him enough.
He has touched my heart in a way no one else has. A simple hello can make me smile all day long. I have promised him that when he gets home and settled I will come visit. I am excited to meet him and I will not be the one who stands him up a second time. I care about him. A simple flight between places for him had me worried to no ends. I mean I stay up to talk to him before he goes to work and we are on a seven hour difference.
We have talked about things that I haven't discussed with other people in a long time. Told him about the simplest things in my life to my darkest secrets. I trust him. He doesn't want me to limit myself. He has told me to keep dating and meeting people. When it is over he just wants to hear the details. On the other hand, if he gets to go on a date I want to know about it as well...hahaha. He told me that he is just someone behind a computer screen. I understand why he doesn't want me to get to connected and why he wouldn't want himself to become connected to me.
~Violet
